yah...

i have no idea for a good title for today...so...yah :p

this was the best weekend we've had in a long time.  we didn't do anything spectacular but we did spend a lot of time together, and it was just what we needed.  we went to the cookout at laura's yesterday and it was just so nice to kind of sit and hang out and just be someone other than 'mom.'  my friend emily has sort of been mia (working, etc., etc.) and she recently got a new job that is allowing her to be around a lot more, and selfishly enough, i am loving it.  i've really missed hanging out with her and it was nice to just get to sit and chat with her for awhile.  i don't have a ton of friends and the ones that i do have i don't see near enough.  life gets in the way, blah, blah, blah.  i haven't seen (or really talked to) my best friend in awhile and it's really been getting to me....

speaking of friends...i got a call from one of my oldest friends.  we've been friends since 2nd grade and she's run into a rather rough patch.  i've mentioned her before.  she's been through rehab, she's gotten arrested, she can only see her children with supervised visits, it's just bad.  anyway, she had gone to rehab just recently, she got a boyfriend, they moved in together, she got a new job, it seemed like she was really trying to get her life back.  well, apparently that's not so much the case.  she called me friday morning asking me if i could give her a ride to bail her boyfriend out of jail.  he's much younger than us (23...next to our 33), and she's been sort of reliving her youth through him.  he has a suspended license and he's already gotten caught driving her car more than once.  apparently he got arrested for a DUI thursday through the night and he was sitting in jail, and her parents truck was being impounded.  the whole thing was just too much for my taste.  i was walking emma to the bus stop when she called.  i had physical therapy later that morning...it just reeked of nonsense.  if you know me, saying no is near impossible.  i felt horrible, but come on.  we're 33 years old.  we have families.  it's time to grow up.  i kind of forgot about it all and then her ex-husband called me last night.  apparently things have been a lot worse than she led on.  she got arrested again after she'd been in rehab, her boyfriend just recently totalled out her car, she hasn't been seeing her daughters...it all just makes me so sad.  At the same time, it makes me so thankful for what i have.  i have a family who loves me, a husband who busts his ass every day so we can have the things we want and need, 2 daughters who are not only healthy but well behaved and smart, and while i have my issues, they're mild to what they could be in the grand scheme of things.  it just...addiction is such a horrible, horrible thing and i'm glad that i am where i am today.

on a lighter note (thank god, right?), madelyn and i are taking up biking LOL  i mentioned my deal of the year bike 'rickshaw' that i got for madelyn yesterday and she is obsessed.  we went for a 1/2 hr bike ride this am and she was begging for more.  her wanting to go for a bike ride is just the push i need to get out and exercise in the mornings.  today we dropped emma off at the bus stop and then rode for awhile.  one nice thing about living where we do is that we can pretty much ride the whole town and not worry about traffic or the streets we 'can't' go down.  i always seem to feel so much better when i get out and exercise, it's just a matter of actually getting off my butt to do it.

we've got no plans for this evening so maybe i'll just let the girls play out in the yard and i'll finish my book.  lynae had mentioned coming down but now isn't.  soooo, we'll just hang out by ourselves again.  tomorrow night i have my first PTG meeting and then i work wednesday night followed by emma's open house (that i'm making 3 dz cookies for eeeek), busy, busy, busy!

until next time...