tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85737690480500704232024-02-20T05:35:44.180-08:00A Beautiful DayLaurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.comBlogger225125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-54998855562965910692014-10-25T04:27:00.001-07:002014-10-25T04:27:27.307-07:00that a-ha momentI've been crabby this week. Now, before you get all smart-ass-y, yes, I'm crabby a lot but, lesbehonest, I'm 37 years old. This is who I am. It was a crappy week as far as lots of things being thrown my way and having to deal with it on my own. That's the thing though. I dealt with it. On my own. Last night as I was driving home from dinner with my parents and Aunt Kathy, I had a sort of revelation. My entire life has been spent helping other people. I could be in the worst mood ever and as soon as a friend calls I drop said mood and put on my "allow Laura to help you" face. I need to not only want to help others, but help myself as well. I've put a lot of faith into wanting people to be there for me as I would be there for them. That's just silly. I'm not saying my feelings and spewing about what's going on doesn't matter, I KNOW it does, I just don't need anyone to validate that. Well, I mean, I'm sure I'll want someone to at one point or another but, I need to focus more on who <i>I</i> am. I'm always taking care of others and very often when I have alone time, I don't know what to even do. That's sad. It's really sad.<br />
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So, in a few hours, I'm going to go with a friend for an afternoon/night away with some friends who I've never met. hahahaha That sounds SO funny. Truth of the matter is, these people know a side of me that goes unspoken. We may have never met face to face (although after today that won't be true), but there's so much that goes unsaid that they just "get." I'm going to just have fun, be Laura instead of "mom" or "mama" and I'm not going to worry about what's going on or who wants (or doesn't want) to know what's going on.<br />
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It's time to just put a little faith in myself and quit waiting for it to be validated. It's time for a little self-love because, well, honestly, I haven't loved myself in a VERY long time.Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-1667501511474571102014-10-23T08:32:00.001-07:002014-10-23T08:32:14.156-07:00WhoopsieSo, I'm sure none of you are surprised that the whole "I'm gonna blog everyday!" thing didn't last more than what, 2 days? I'd apologize, but I'm not sorry. ha! Life happens. Stuff gets in the way. Sundays are my only guaranteed days with Darik so, I doubt I'll ever blog on Sundays and well, lemme tell ya what's been going on instead of telling you why I haven't blogged.<br />
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Monday was fine. I didn't have kids that day so I decided it was going to be the day that I cleaned house from top to bottom. I cleaned from 8 am until about 1ish. Then, I facetime'd a friend for awhile, and by that time, I finished up the little bit of stuff I had left to do and it was time to get the kids. I was whupped after I put the kids to bed so, needless to say, they went to bed, I had a snack, and I went to bed as well.<br />
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Tuesday morning, Madelyn wakes up and says her gums feel weird. I kinda brush it off because this is the first time I've heard about it. I tell her that she's probably just getting some molars and we'd wait and see. She takes a shower, morning goes on, I decide I'd better look and see. Well, it's not the back of her mouth, it's the middle. I knew she had a cavity, I wasn't sure where and well, it's a baby tooth, I wasn't overly concerned about it. It is now of course abscessed. Not only is it abscessed, but she has a cold sore on her gums. I had to go to the school after she ate lunch, gave her some Advil and we had a dentist appointment set up for 315. We go to the dentist...which she's petrified of, did I mention that?...and they want to get an X-ray. First of all, she's 6. She has a small mouth. Odds are good you aren't going to be able to use an adult sized X-ray thingie on her. Second, did I mention she's petrified of the dentist? the X-ray results in her bawling because she's scared. They don't get a good picture (surprise) and then when the dentist comes in she's questioning me about how long the tooth has been like that, when did she start complaining about it...blah, blah, blah (totally charlie brown's teacher going on in my head). Then I got pissed. How dare they insinuate that I let this get to the point where they want to do a root canal on her tooth?? So, me and my big mouth, I tell the dentist, "well, she just started complaining about it this morning and she's never once said it hurts. She says it feels weird. She never has said it hurts and this morning was the first time I've ever even heard of it." <bitch> They tell me she needs to be on antibiotics for 10 days before they'll even do anything to it. Fine. They want to do a <a href="http://www.toothclub.gov.hk/en/en_adu_01_06_08.html">pulp treatment</a>, she's had one done before...it's essentially a root canal on a baby tooth. I don't know that I want to spend that much money on a tooth she's going to lose anyway. Calm me cheap, whatevs. I go to Walgreen's by the dentist...there are SEVEN people in the drive thru and the parking lot is packed. Aw, hell, nah. I decide to go the pharmacy by my parents' house. They got it filled in 10 minutes. Of course I got stuck behind every person going 10 mph BELOW the speed limit on my way there. Go get Emma and my ILs and well, that's just another story for another time. :)</bitch><br />
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Tuesday night Madelyn was up every hour from 1230 on. For various reasons. Her tooth hurt (I get it's worse at night AND that tooth pain is the worst), she had a bad dream, she couldn't get comfortable, etc., etc. I knew she'd probably wind up coming home from school and Wednesday but she was saying the pledge over the announcements Wednesday morning and she didn't want to miss that. I got a call while I was getting groceries around 1130 that she was in the office and her tooth hurt. I didn't hear my phone ring so I missed the call, they called Darik...because he can do a lot while he's at work...I hurry from Morris to go and get her and the little snot is LAUGHING on the car ride home from school. I get it, it's tooth pain, but...you're not at school. So, I made her lay down when the little girl I had here was taking her nap. haha. I showed her :p<br />
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Last night she was only up once at 230 asking for a reheat of her heating pad (I just make them myself) and some Advil/orajel. I figured she should at least try to go to school today since they were getting out early. 930 I get the call. So, she's home. I figure, why fight keeping her at school. They're out of school tomorrow (parent/teacher conferences) so, she'll have a few days to let the antibiotics work.<br />
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All of this going on on top of the normal chaos with babysitting and getting haircuts and blah, blah, blah...I'm ready for a weekend away. Or a night. Anything.<br />
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So, today, I'm baking. <a href="http://cookiesandcups.com/cream-cheese-brownie-cookies/">These</a> as a matter of fact. I probably won't even eat any of them, but baking makes me feel better. I'm stabbity, I have a crappy attitude, and well, no one deserves the tongue lashing that I could dish out today ;)<br />
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That's that. That's why I've been kinda quiet. The rest of the week and the weekend is jam packed as well. I'll take a breather at some point...or crash...just how it goes this time of year. I guess that's a good thing though because it keeps me from thinking and spiraling. <br />
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<br />Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-85247710552257292512014-10-18T19:42:00.000-07:002014-10-18T19:42:12.147-07:00Today I didn't even have to use my AKhaha<br />
I'm so hilarious.<br />
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Today was a pretty good day considering the past couple have been total shit. I think the difference was that I stayed busy. I wasn't stuck at home with my thoughts and no one to talk to but the babies. ;)<br />
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Last week I'd ordered Madelyn some jeans. We got them on Thursday and they didn't even sort of fit. Oops. So, today, we had to go and find some. Every pair of jeans she had were about 3 inches too short. The girls and I went with my mom to Old Navy and then to JC Penneys. Then headed to Chipotle for lunch. I spent the afternoon scrapping and chatting with some friends about a book I had just finished. I kept myself occupied. Darik was home this afternoon/evening so we hung out. It was a good day. <br />
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I DO realize it's not all doom and gloom. I'm definitely going to take the good days when I can get them...and today was one of those days.<br />
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With that, I'm off to eat my Starkiss and read a little bit of my book. Darik is hunting for the first time this season in the am, and lord knows I'll wake up when he leaves at 330. Fingers crossed (for all of us) that I fall back asleep.Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-58754154470177666902014-10-17T16:40:00.000-07:002014-10-17T16:40:28.710-07:00Wow. 2 years, huh?Clearly, I'm easily amused. It's been TWO years since I've even sort of used this blog. It was such an important part of my weight loss journey and then the poor, little guy got pushed to the side because other things came about. Well, the time has come where I'm going to rely on this "safe place" as my sounding board. It's <i>that</i> time of year. If you know me at all, you know what I'm talking about. The time of year where my insecurities rear their ugly head, where I feel as if I'm alone, where everyone is out to get me, it's just ugly...and I don't want to burden anyone with what's wrong because well, I can't always put into words what is wrong. OR...I CAN put into words what is wrong and I don't want to vocalize it because well, it's silly and I'm VERY well aware of that. So, with all of that being said, one of two things will probably happen throughout this season (and perhaps even farther if I continue on). You'll either be able to relate with all of the crazy things or you'll want to smack me upside the head and shake the stupid, selfishness out of me. I get it. Not everyone gets the whole depression thing. That's why this is here. So I don't have to spew my word vomit on anyone but those who choose to read it. That's all. Maybe this'll give you a little insight into why I act the way I do as well. Maybe. Hell, most days even *I* can't answer that one.<br />
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One thing that I've noticed is that as I've gotten older, the "dark time" starts a little sooner than it has the year before. I've always dealt with depression, anxiety, and just plain, ol' insecure feelings for as long as I can remember, but it's always much worse in the winter. I'm a girl who needs the sun, the warmth, to be able to be outside and to spend time with my friends. Winter in IL isn't so conducive to all of that nonsense. It's gray. It's cold. It's icy or snowy. No one wants to go out in it and probably 75% of my friends around here get some sort of seasonal depression as well. <br />
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I can't put what is wrong into words. I'm just sad. I think. I make up scenarios that don't exist. People who I know aren't upset or angry with me, really are. So, I do two things. I hide from those who I know I can reach out to (and ironically enough, a lot of times, it's the people who I wouldn't reach out to who are there) or I put on a happy face and help others crawl out of their hole of depression. Admittedly, option two really does make me feel better. For the time being. I always seem to revert back to that feeling of the hole in my chest where <i>something</i> should be, but it just....isn't. Music doesn't (always) help. Reading doesn't (always) help. Scrapping doesn't (always) help....it just sucks.<br />
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So. Now that you have an idea of what my yearly issue is...let's talk about what's been up lately. Darik is working RIDICULOUS hours. Like, 70 hours a week or more. So, it's the girls and me, or my mom and the 3 of us, or babysitting kids here...and no Darik. I KNOW he wants to be here with us and hates working so much and that he's doing it so we can live the way we do, but I hate it. I hate that we only get about an hour of time with him at night (and sometimes, it's ONLY me because he doesn't get home until the girls are in bed) and time on Sundays. That's it. I miss him. Yes, we drive each other crazy, but not seeing the person who is the yin to your yang, it's rough stuff. I don't want to whine about it because, well, he hates it as much as we do.<br />
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Then, there's the whole imaginary scenario I've made up in my head. My best friend has been quiet lately. She's gone through a lot, I really don't want to just bother her for no reason (even though she continually reassures me I'm not bothering her), so I don't. So now, our friendship is "faltering" and I'm too much of a wuss to say anything about it because I don't want to look stupid. I hate to be that annoying person who texts for no real reason, or the person who complains all the time, or just says silly things...so I don't. Then I think about why she's not reaching out to me and it's because I'm just not a priority. See. THIS is the shit I don't want to talk to anyone about. It's ridiculous, it's selfish, it could EASILY be resolved but because I'm a head case, I do nothing and I just continually go round and round in the same circle all the time.<br />
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The other thing that has really been getting to me lately is that the vast majority of my friends are eleventy billion miles away. Yes, we talk daily, whether it be via text or phone call or whatever, but still, they're eleventy billion miles away. Then I get sad because I don't have many friends here. Which, I realize, this is my own fault but...again, my crazy spins out of control.<br />
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So, that's it for tonight. I'm going to attempt to get lost in Photoshop and chat it up a little with my Bubba and keep the demons at bay for now. <br />
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Just, remember, I warned you and yes...this sucks.Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-63361910767138377052012-01-23T12:10:00.001-08:002012-01-23T12:10:34.847-08:00yup.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNi76YrgBHVS7XLySn8ulvW-qobk76LDNxco7ZPlQu4CvfxOsxLWvRjdW4y7s9lLzWOCJQDgn5HNLnsZWvKGaBM0eCRo8HgDpTniEUsAQLBlG5HNoA29aAQmtK74rrMhE90CZxc5uvpEg/s1600/you-suck.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNi76YrgBHVS7XLySn8ulvW-qobk76LDNxco7ZPlQu4CvfxOsxLWvRjdW4y7s9lLzWOCJQDgn5HNLnsZWvKGaBM0eCRo8HgDpTniEUsAQLBlG5HNoA29aAQmtK74rrMhE90CZxc5uvpEg/s1600/you-suck.jpg" /></a></div>Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-2660972893301164082012-01-23T06:54:00.000-08:002012-01-23T06:54:14.316-08:00*wiping the dust off the keyboard*so, i ran into a bit of bad luck. said kidney infection made me a little more sick than anticipated and well, i wasn't in the best of moods....so, i just sort of hibernated. i feel mostly better now. still have a pain in my side, but i go to the dr on wednesday, so we'll see. i did go to immediate care one night and they ruled out the 'big' things (appendix, kidney, pancreas, blah, blah, blah...did an xray, nothing showed up) so, i just have been dealing with it instead of dwelling on it.<br />
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it has quickly become 'that' time of the year. the blahs are setting in, i hate my husband, the kids are passing sickies back and forth, i'm a pleasant person all around :)<br />
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the past couple days i have been very irritable. for no specific reason, just irritable. could be pms, could be the weather, i'm just not sure. little things annoy me. people i should be nice to, i just can't be nice to, so, again, i hibernate.<br />
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darik is at that point in the hunting season where i hate him. i keep telling myself, only 2 more weeks (not even that) and then i'll have my husband back, but i seriously don't know if i'll make it this year. every year about this time, he becomes a selfish prick. he doesn't come home after they're done, he stays out there to drink with the guys, i ask him to do something and he just flakes on it, he comes home to eat (sometimes) and sleep and that's about it. then, he'll call me and wonder why i don't want to talk to him. prime example (so you know, i can justify not being a complete psycho wife), madelyn is sick. every time she gets sick, she gets goopy eyes. not pink eye, but her eyes leak and she gets gunk. i have pink eye drops but hate to use them bc she doesn't technically have pink eye. so, i text him yesterday, he was working at the hunt club, about 2 pm to ask if he could stop and get some visine since i thought we had some and didn't pick any up. he says, 'sure.' he came home about 430 to go to the bathroom and i asked if he had the eye drops. he said no because he hadn't been to the club yet. he was going to drop off his stuff and he'd bring them home. he wasn't going to stay out there because there was no one there, everyone had gone home. so, we go about our business...i finally call him about 645. yes. 645. i ask if he'll be home soon. he says, 'let me talk to the girls and i'll tell them good night.' i say, 'well, they're not going to bed yet but i was wondering about the eye drops for your daughter.' he then says, 'oh shit. that's right. do you want me to go get them?' no. i'll deal with it and i'll get them in the morning. fast forward about 1/2 an hr later when they DO go to bed. i have them say good night, then i hang up. he immediately texts me...'what? you don't wanna talk to me?' i told him i was taking the dog out. he says back, 'you should love me.' o_0 i say, 'i was taking the dog out so i could put your children to bed.' end of discussion. he got home about 11. i mean, am i overreacting? no? i didn't think so either. i'm still angry about it today. he called me this am, just to talk and he says 'boy, you seem like you don't want to talk this morning.' really? you think?<br />
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well, i'm off to take m to the dr's. hopefully it's just a cold and no big deal. it's her first 'real' sickness of the winter so i can't really complain.<br />
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until next time...Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-74169002268651937292012-01-14T19:44:00.000-08:002012-01-14T19:44:24.859-08:00where does time go?i swear. one day it's monday, the next it's saturday. jeez. i had to babysit both thursday and friday and well, once the kids leave and i get mine to bed, i'm done for. i'm old. i can't hang with the big kids anymore.<br />
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friday was a busy day. i had madelyn's little boyfriend and his twin brother here. lily was here, josh was here after school...and then emma had her 'big game' she was so totally stoked for it and darik got home in time to go watch her which made her even MORE excited. i of course brought pictures :p<br />
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today we took the girls to see beauty and the beast 3D and then ate at the food court in the mall and then went to Target. it's becoming a sort of 'winter tradition' that we all get together for a girls day on saturday's when lynn doesn't have to work in the am. <br />
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other than that, not much else has been going on. we got a pretty good snow storm thursday morning. i didn't send madelyn to school on thursday because of it. emma's cheer practice got cancelled thursday night because of it too. now it's just cold. the girls have been asking to play outside but, brrrrr<br />
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i'm still having quite a bit of pain from this kidney infection. i got the results of the culture today and asked about the pain. the chick told me to wait and take the 10 days of antibiotics before i worried about it. awesome :/<br />
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one last thing i wanna bitch about.....m takes singulair. she's taken it since before she had her adenoids out. it helps her SO much and imo, she really needs it to prevent all the sickies. we have to order maintenance drugs through the union hall if we want the insurance to cover it. so, her rx for that comes from the hall. we had to take her for a reassesment to make sure that the dr wanted to keep her on that and that doseage, blah, blah, blah. so, i sent in the rx on December 31st. TODAY....January 14th mind you, i get a thing in the mail saying i have to go pick it up at the post office. so now, the poor kid has been without her medicine since 2 wks ago and we have to wait until tuesday to pick it up, all because i wasn't home to sign for it when the mail lady was here. rawr. <br />
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that's it. i suppose i should head to bed. i didn't sleep much last night. went to bed late and d got up early so....i'm kinda tired.Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-22458394159215899972012-01-11T18:33:00.000-08:002012-01-11T18:33:55.571-08:00i want my mommy.so, yesterday about 1 pm, i started peeing. i peed until about 10 am this morning when i took a major dose of antibiotics. i have never had a bladder infection, ever. no clue what one would feel like, no idea what i should look for, but something was definitely wrong. as the day went on, i was peeing more, it started to hurt on my lower right side, then it sorta leaked over into my back. i'd lay down, and have to get up 10 or 15 min later. literally. i had made an appt with a dr, but couldn't get in until thursday. at the time, thursday was ok, i wasn't in a lot of pain, the peeing wasn't super annoying but just irritating, and i figured i'd be ok. well, when i talked to darik about it, he told me not to wait and go to immediate care, i told him i would, and as the night went on, i was glad i did. sooo, i went to immediate care after a very long night. i have a bladder infection, with the possibility that it's in my kidneys. they sent off for a culture and i'll know for sure by saturday. they put me on some uber antibiotics and i picked up some cranberry pills, some cranberry juice, and a bunch of other stuff to ease the pain/discomfort and i'm hoping tonight is a little better. i do feel better and i'm definitely not going to the bathroom as much (thank you baby jesus) so hopefully even if it is/was in my kidneys, the antibiotic will clear it up.<br />
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the next couple days are going to be a whirlwind i think. tomorrow i have to watch lily, then after school i have the 3 bigger kids, emma has cheerleading practice and of course darik won't be home until sunday. we're supposed to have a bunch of snow, but only time will tell i guess. the girls are SUPER excited about getting some snow finally though. i digress....friday, i have to watch 2 of the little boys who are in m's class as well as lily, then i'll have josh after school, emma's game is also friday night too. guess that's what i get for being a hermit and lazy all week :)<br />
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anywho, i'm off to watch the people's choice awards. hopefully i'm back tomorrow...well rested :)Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-65606696484267141502012-01-09T17:36:00.000-08:002012-01-09T17:36:02.896-08:00friggin' full moonyou know me, you know that madelyn is my rapscallion. she's sassy, she's mean, well, she's a lot like me, let's be honest. the past couple days she has just been out of control. the mouth, the attitude, the way she treats others....yes, she's 3, but that's no excuse. <br />
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she started off the day talking, like she always does, but it never tapered off. ever. she was either spinning or bouncing off the walls (literally) or asking questions or running after the dog, at one point, she even dressed the dog up in her dress up clothes. i handled it all in stride....until we were getting ready for bed and she kicked the dog...and laughed. i snapped. we had JUST discussed 2 days ago that we don't kick the dog, how would she like it if i kicked her for no reason. you get the picture. so, that recent discussion coupled with the way she'd been acting all day and the fact that poor emma was trying to tell me she was sick, just, i snapped. i spanked her. i spanked her out of anger. now, i didn't spank her hard, but i don't spank. i scared her more than anything, but damn it, she needed to know this kind of behavior is NOT acceptable. the past 2 days have been HORRIBLE for her and i honestly don't know if i can take another one. darik leaves in the am and well, she may just be spending a lot of time in her room. i just don't know what to do with her anymore. <br />
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i feel bad for emma because she sees me get mad at madelyn and then she thinks i'm mad at her as well....blah. i don't lose my temper with them often, yes, i yell at her for doing things she shouldn't and what not, but i rarely come unglued. <br />
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*sigh*Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-64713327044429896632012-01-08T13:29:00.000-08:002012-01-08T13:29:27.914-08:00yup. still lazy.well, now it is sunday...and yup, i'm still lazy :) i haven't left the house (minus to go to the grocery store to get stuff for darik's apple slices) since friday night and i'm ok with that!<br />
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i mentioned yesterday was a good day, well, let's just say the demons are making up for that today. madelyn has been whiny and just plain rude all day. she threw the dog off the couch at one point earlier today if that gives you any indication of her loveliness today. *eye roll* emma's never really bad, but when m is like this, it just adds fuel to the fire. e gets annoyed by m, then they bicker, then i get annoyed, and when darik's home he just plain blows up. so while we haven't done a whole lot today, emotions have been....high.<br />
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emma starts cheerleading tomorrow night and she is SO excited. she has practice 3 nights this week where they learn a little dance and a cheer and then they're going to perform at one of the varsity boys basketball games at the HS with the Pantherettes. she is just beside herself. it's kinda nice because one of the girls i babysit after school is doing it as well, so kayli will be able to practice with emma. i kinda worry about how well she'll take to this LOL<br />
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here's a layout i did today, with la grier's newest kit. i <3 la. i always love my pages with her stuff. scrap therapy is my friend.<br />
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well, that is all for today. like i said, we've been boring this weekend, so, not a whole lot to report :)Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-17824038585930416092012-01-07T17:41:00.000-08:002012-01-07T17:41:24.084-08:00ahhh, the weekendgotta love a lazy weekend :) today we did a whole lotta nothin'. once we were up and moving this morning, i made the girls chocolate chip pancakes and bacon. the bacon was more for darik, but that's beside the point LOL <br />
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i planned on doing a whole lot of nothing because these past few weeks have been so insanely busy. i DID make some brownies and apple slices for darik's meeting tonight, but for the most part, i spent the day scrapping, playing kinect with the girls, bathing the dog (fun times right there) and just being lazy. i love the age that the girls are at now. yes, madelyn tends to be on the sassy side, but we're all just content just staying home and spending time together. tonight once darik left for his meeting, we sat down and watched thumbelina (well, they watched thumbelina, i read my book) and just snuggled on the couch. they sat and watched the whole movie (minus a few moments of pent up energy) and it was just a really enjoyable evening. i'm not so sure we had many of those about 6 months ago!<br />
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i mentioned my book. i'm reading "the happiness project" right now. it's our book of the month over at SSD and it had been recommended to me by a friend almost a year ago now. my one goal for the new year is to be more positive. the older i get, the more i realize that the whole 'fake it until you make it' mantra, is a good one to stick to. so, my goal for this year is to woosah more often and try to focus on the positive instead of the negative. i'm really enjoying this book and i really do think that i will incorporate a lot of what she's saying into my daily life. the part that i just finished up had to do with her relationship with her spouse. it made me realize that i really do need to concentrate more on how i interact with darik. i do push him to the side quite often, not because i don't love him or care about his feelings, but because i'm so strongly independent and well, often times it's just easier to do it myself. i hate to nag, i hate to ask more than once....but i need to own up to the fact that i have my own faults as well. <br />
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i've said it before, but, i worked on the outside for 2 years, now it's time to work on the inside. i'm not unhappy with the person i am, but there's always room for improvement :)<br />
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we all know i'm pretty opinionated, and i often say what i'm thinking. i guess the older i get, the more i realize i just can't say whatever i want to say. i mean, yes, i'm still going to be opinionated and i'll still say what i say and what i believe in, but i really need to take people's feelings into account. i realize that saying things, may hurt someone else's feelings and then when it comes around to it, i feel horrible because i've hurt someone's feelings. i play a badass on tv, but we ALL know i'm not one. <br />
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other than that, not a whole lot has been going on. babysitting, wallowing, like i said, rough week.<br />
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i'll leave today with a couple layouts i did for sweet shoppe's new releases this week :)<br />
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<br />Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-52037767013618840492012-01-03T19:22:00.000-08:002012-01-03T19:22:39.611-08:00new year, new blog?now, i know this is doubtful...but....i'd like to keep up with blogging again. i think. i mean, i'm sure people get sick of hearing me spew my nonsense on facebook and well, i need someplace to just talk. so, why not start up ye blog again. it's here, may as well use it ;)<br />
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things around here are quite different than they were last year. darik is still working for the same company *thank god* but i am not working. well, i'm not working outside of the home anyway. i've started babysitting. odd job choice for me, but in all actuality, i really do like it. i like that i can stay in my pajamas all day, snuggling up with the kiddos, yet, i can still go to the school activities i want to go to for my OWN children. right now, i only have 1 full time kiddo and then i have 3 after school ones. i'd really like to get another full time child but, we'll see. <br />
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big news around here....we leave in 42 days to go to cozumel! wooohooooo! darik got it in his head around christmas time that he wanted to get away. so....we all know, when he gets something in his head, it always happens. <br />
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i'm sure i'll be back with entertainment again soonLaurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-17847768251227047292011-08-18T18:29:00.000-07:002011-08-18T18:29:28.208-07:00whoopsman. where has this week gone??? monday and tuesday we spent the days cleaning and what not in preparation for emma to go back to school on wednesday. not a lot went on, but it was stuff we needed to get done. <br />
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today i watched Jack for a few hours as a test run. he's not going to be a problem i don't think. he's definitely a boy, but he's used to being with girls so i think that will give him a little bit of an edge here. he's a good kid and he definitely kept me on my toes today. i won't start watching lily until the week before labor day so...about 2 more weeks. <br />
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i am just SO mad about this next topic, i could spit nails. i'm sure of it. madelyn tested for the preschool that emma went to back in april. april 9th to be exact. they told me she didn't need any further supplemental help (such as REACH or what not) but that they would contact me in about a month to let me know if she would be placed in the preschool. flash forward to june. i get a letter in the mail stating that she is on the waiting list, but that i will be contacted some time before school starts. well, i enrolled her in a preschool here that's 2 days a week for 3 hrs and i have to pay for. she needs something. i figured, even if she got into the school emma had gone to (which is free...and 5 days a week) i would suck up the $75 deposit because well, it'd totally be worth it. emma got SO much out of the school. so, i got a message from my friend yesterday asking if madelyn was in the am or pm class. ummm....she didn't get in? i explained to her about the note, and she talked to the teacher that emma had had. today mrs best called me and asked me what the deal was. i explained to her (lol how many times will i have to tell the story?) about the waiting list and she tells me that all i need to do is produce the wait list letter and fax it to them and she's in. well, of course i can't find the letter. i'm assuming i tossed it because why would i need a letter telling me i was going to get another letter to tell me if she was picked up or not. SO, flash forward to tonight. my friend took her little boy to orientation for the preschool tonight and she explains the whole story to the teacher that her son has (the other teacher, not the one emma had). apparently she thinks there was a lost waiting list. they have SIXTEEN spots available in coal city alone. SIXTEEN. why haven't i been contacted about my daughter yet? they're retesting kids and my kid is still not getting picked up? sure, it was irresponsible of me to lose the letter, but shouldn't that be on YOUR files? i have PT at 9 tomorrow and if i haven't heard anything by the time i get out i will be making phone calls and making sure that she has a spot. this is ridiculous.<br />
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we went to ryan's bday party at noon....which was bound to be an interesting situation. it actually went fairly smoothly. any fighting that occured was under breath and not where anyone could see. i would be lying though if i said that i wasn't glad that that was going to be the last joint party. poor nattie was in the same boat that madelyn was in and the poor baby was all snotty and allergy like. she fell asleep on my lap about 15 min after we got there and stayed there until we left about 2. makes me miss when my kidlets wanted to nap on me....not enough to HAVE another, but it does make me miss it.<br />
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we all came home and napped and then we decided to go outside and enjoy this beautiful weather we're having. it was about 76 today and there was a breeze...was just gorgeous!<br />
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unfortunately, when m woke up from her nap, she was NOT feeling well. she said she had a 'fwog in huh fwoat' and she was all 'booguhwee.' we went out and got her some meds and she was running a little fever when i put her to bed. hopefully she'll wake up feeling a little better. i hate when she gets ill because it's never just a cold. it's always 'something'<br />
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So, Friday we went to the zoo to meet up with my mom and Levi, and we also met Heather up there. it was just about perfect zoo weather and the kids made it the majority of the day with no meltdowns (minus one from miss madelyn). Here's a few pics from the day...<br />
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i met with he family of the little girl i'm going to be watching once school starts last night. actually, it was a mad dash to get home so i could meet them here in time. she went to the same sitter that m and e went to when i was working...up until that sitter quit. i guess her parents had never found another sitter and a mutual friend of ours sort of connected us. they came here and emma and madelyn picked right up where they had left off with her. she actually cried when it was time to leave LOL i guess that's a good sign for me!<br />
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today, we made up for the business of yesterday. laundry, a trip to the dollar store and lots of cuddling on the couch and in the recliner watching movies for us today. emma went with darik this afternoon to run errands and madsy and i stayed home to have some time together. we both fell asleep on the couch until darik and emma got back home! lol<br />
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tonight, here i sit...home by myself on a saturday night now that the babies are in bed and darik is out with a couple buddies. sad as that may be, i honestly wouldn't want it any other way right now.Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-40105593313766052812011-08-13T13:21:00.000-07:002011-08-13T13:22:23.042-07:00first things first....<div style="text-align: left;">i gotta show off....</div>scrappity goodness releasing today at SSD. <br />
(for those of you who aren't aware, thursday, friday and Saturday will probably consist of me posting a lot of scrappy stuffs along with the regularly scheduled programming....bc....well, that's when my designers release their new stuffs. and yes, they are MINE)<br />
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now, i must note.....i didn't use a template on any of these....perhaps my mojo has returned??? perhaps?? not that there's anything wrong with templates, i was just stuck in a rut where i didn't do a layout without one very often. ANYWHO, like i said, on to the newness.<br />
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first up is some amazingness from KCB. i love that she did a lake kit. the whole beach thing has been done, and well, none of my 'beach' pics are....beachy. so, here ya have it....my fave layout atm.<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">next up is a peek at my new favorite alpha. for reals, Darcy Baldwin really hit it outta the park with this one.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">next up is a peek at the gorgeousness from Traci Reed...with a lil' bit of that alpha from D thrown in. :)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><a href="http://www.sweetshoppecommunity.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=195538&ppuser=1264"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikYEofuama2bcHUvk7DQVgWhwPKlp4lkggtrV3RzzpCzhsU3N9zS1jggddGPBRNKpbibiB2kiD7BOLSBZbYBmCyNziGQJ0jHfQQs8yFhAhhfKcidxwhGK8i2tLNYNTxRB9D0daA7KnC8U/s1600/never-forget-what-i-said.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">next up, a lil' feebee for you.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.sweetshoppecommunity.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=195542&ppuser=1264" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUIBu-9yDuRwW9fjfUDRHZqpFGC4q5icAmZZyuPU0lCmLrXsJoVxfjiW7o7ZYbb2Yr8Ms5750h2BDHrqt95lbxdX_wmCUxyT_Bn8MUWRV33xVXSpPV50RuwDf10t1sQ36jgTBkrX4vNqo/s1600/sweet-summer-afternoon.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-88251304893298467152011-08-13T06:46:00.000-07:002011-08-13T06:46:44.792-07:00wow!i haven't blogged since THURSDAY! what the hell maynard? yesterday was a busy day with friends at the zoo and then i met the little girl i'll be babysitting once the school year starts. today's just a lazy day here. laundry, have to run to the dollar store later (the little diva broke her sleep mask and needs a new one) but other than that...i think i shall scrap. and blog later......Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-37933474450178641892011-08-11T05:21:00.000-07:002011-08-11T05:21:02.793-07:00i want to punch someonenot sure why....but for the past few days i've been extremely irritable. yanno, in case you hadn't noticed LOL it's not getting to the point where i feel like i need meds again...but i wonder if it's heading in that direction. i'm going to wait it out and see how things are once school starts. the non-stop fighting and whining coming from the kids i'm sure doesn't help. all of that seems to subside a bit once emma gets her routine and schedule back. <br />
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so far today, all bets are off. today is levi's last day with us....and i think we're all kinda glad for that. like i said, yesterday, emma and levi have reached that point where they just can't stand each other anymore and that makes for a lot of very tense situations. i was supposed to have PT this am and then we were going to go for lunch with my aunt since today's her birthday. well, 2 little girls were up at 400 so, that won't be happening. emma's been complaining of her ear hurting so i think i'm going to finally bite the bullet and take her in. <br />
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i'm just very......RAWR. i have a bad attitude, i just want to cry...and that's the first sign that i need to step away and have a break. we're supposed to head to the zoo tomorrow, so i'm hoping that will be a little break that we all need. either that or it could be totally disastrous. damn the pessimist in me!Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-20396955657137707882011-08-10T19:46:00.000-07:002011-08-10T19:46:12.253-07:00the best of intentions....i honestly always have the best of intentions when it comes to blogging. i <i>think</i> i'm going to do it everyday but when it comes down to it, 95% of the time, once i get the kids in bed, all i want to do is just sit and do nothing. i can't do it in the morning because well, they wake me up and once they're awake, there's no quiet time LOL<br />
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yesterday was not a good day. i think that's why i was so hesitant to even blog yesterday. i was in a bad mood and it would have definitely shown in my blog post.<br />
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yesterday was supposed to be m's first dentist appointment. she woke up totally stoked about it, was fine all the way there, as soon as we got out of the car, she started BAWLING. now, madelyn is not a crier. the only time she cries is if she's honest to goodness scared of if she's in pain. i knew it was going to bad from there on out and we shouldn't have even gone in. she did great in the waiting room, she did great when the assistant brought her in to show her all the tools and tell her what they do....and then the dr walked in. she started bawling. wouldn't open her mouth. started hyperventilating....was having NO part of it. we tried to tell her that she couldn't go to school until she let the dentist count her teeth, no dice. we tried to tell her it wouldn't hurt, that nothing bad was going to happen, nope. i sat with her on the chair, uh uh. finally after about 10 minutes, we all said forget it. i'm not sure what her problem was but i made another appointment for the 18th. the little shit woke up this morning saying, 'mama. we go see my teeth doctah today?' grrrrrrrrrrrr!<br />
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we had an incident with emma yesterday too. she decided it was a good idea to just take off and go talk to the boy down the street. granted, he was just hanging out in front of our house, but in my house, you do NOT just go outside without telling anyone and you most certainly do not leave the yard without telling anyone. i have issues with this little boy playing with the girls anyway, but that's another story for another time. needless to say, she lost her itouch today.<br />
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today was a new day. i woke up with a good attitude...i actually slept for 8 whole hours last night! we went and got groceries/school supplies and i TOTALLY rocked it. i usually allot myself the same amount of money each week for groceries and with school supplies i only went $1.20 over my norm. i was pretty proud of that!<br />
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today we spent a lot of time outside. was a pretty good day overall. was nice to be out in the fresh air with the kiddos. it's definitely getting to be 'that' time of the summer though. the girls are getting on each other's nerves, levi is picking at emma, emma throws a fit because she can't just ignore him.....there have been lots of tears and meltdowns the past few days. <br />
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tomorrow we've got a day of PT planned and then we're going to go out for lunch with my aunt. it's her bday and the girls just adore her (as do i) so we're going to spend the afternoon with her.<br />
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friday we're going to hang out with my friend heather at the zoo, then the girls are going to go see glee with my MIL. should be a fun next couple of days!Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-81046988065434081272011-08-08T16:29:00.000-07:002011-08-08T16:29:07.779-07:00so, here it is....why i hate today.<br />
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thursday last week i got a call from the hospital here saying that my insurance denied my MRI. awesome. 6k that won't be covered. i wasn't sure why so i decided to investigate. the lady in billing told me that we had exhausted the medical funds that were with our auto insurance. again, awesome. i called the lawyer, she was in a meeting, so i left a voicemail. she never called me back thursday night, she never called me back friday, so sunday night i email her. i got an email from her early this am, explaining what i needed to do. now, i realize she is not my slave, but shouldn't my lawyer deal with this? i called the appropriate people today and things have been pretty much taken care of, but...seriously? i'm to the point where i want to say forget it to physical therapy and just get this case moving. so over all of this.<br />
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d came home about 1 pm today. no rain. no wind. no nothin'. he just came home after 6 hrs of work because there wasn't anything else to do. that's not good. this is august. he should be so busy with work that they can't keep up. reason why i hate today #2.<br />
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reason #3. i got a call this morning from my best friend. she's going through a divorce. it is not going well. i hate that it's all going on and it's turning sour, but it is. it just sucks.<br />
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reason #4. my kids need structure. school can't start soon enough. emma is a child who thrives with structure. we do not have that in summertime. she is done, which in turn makes madelyn obnoxious because she of course feeds in to it, which in turn makes me done, which in turn makes for a long day.<br />
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i posted that i'm looking for sitter jobs today. i'm hoping that i pick up at least one or two more kids. we'll see though. <br />
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alright. done bitching for today. <br />
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*note....i know my life does not suck, i realize that i have a wonderful husband who provides for us the best he can, i know that i have 2 children who are beautiful and healthy and well behaved for the most part, but i need to complain sometimes...and here you have it.Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-38071430408213262262011-08-08T05:42:00.000-07:002011-08-08T05:42:19.154-07:00hmm, what's this old thing?is it, a blog???<br />
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i've decided to start blogging again. i don't know if anyone will read it, or if it's even going to be on a regular basis, but i need something. i need an outlet. i'm a bitch anymore. no one wants to listen to me whine and complain so i've decided blogging will be the outlet i need. <br />
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i will preface these posts with, i'm not a complainer, honest. sure i whine, who doesn't, but, i need somewhere to let it out, and this is the spot. my husband doesn't want to be burdened with my whining, i'm sure my friends say that they would listen, but, eh, they don't need my problems either. so, the little bloggy gets the beatings.<br />
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first, i'm going to work on a makeover. i'll post more later, i'm sure.Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-34082328080397852022010-09-26T12:34:00.000-07:002010-09-26T12:34:39.695-07:00sheeshso, um, i apparently suck at doing anything on a daily basis. lol that's why birth control pills never worked for me. i'd do well for a week, then i'd forget a day here and there...sorta like my sporadic blogging!<br />
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darik wound up getting rained on on Friday morning so i packed up madelyn about 730 and headed off to get groceries while darik got emma off to school. we got our stuffs and then i headed on to therapy. i go back to the orthopedic on tuesday so i'll find out then if i'm done with therapy or what. it has helped me a TON and i'm so glad that i went and did it. i'm still having some issues but i almost wonder if it'll ever be back to normal. <br />
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friday night was a busy one. emma went to her first 'big girl' birthday party. it was a drop off kinda party but she wanted me to stay...which was fine since i am friends with the girls mom and we're technically related anyway. lol it was super cute. it was a circus theme and they had about 8 little stands set up for the kids to play with. they got 10 tickets when they walked in and they used 1 ticket for each game. they had cotton candy/popcorn/mini corn dogs/ nachos/cupcakes to eat and some of the little booths they had were face painting/tattoos, balloon animals, penny pusher, ping pong toss, clothespin drop...it was just really a super cute idea. both girls had an absolute blast and i'm SO happy that emma's already making some great friends.<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">yesterday i took the girls to Cornfest with my friend emily, her 2 kids and our friend laura's little boy, ethan. surprises of all surprises, i didn't bring my camera! i was kinda bummed about it because emma was SO brave. she went on some rides that i never in a million years would have guessed she would ride. we were there for a few hours and got the kiddos home in time for naps. wristbands were $15 for unlimited rides from 12-4 so we totally took advantage of that. madelyn and natalie didn't ride many rides but i think they really enjoyed watching the bigger kids get to ride all the rides. they all got a corn dog (or in madelyn's case, a piece of pizza lol) and a lemonade so they were all quite happy! we ended the night with a visit to my parent's house. we made individual pizzas for everyone and had brownie sundaes. then the girls got to do their very favorite thing to do at grandma and papa's house...they played games on their iphones! lol madelyn seriously amazes me with how she navigates her way around that thing. she does better than i do! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">i promised the girls that since the pumpkin farm opened this weekend that we could go today. so...we all know what we did this morning! we went and they played on the little houses, the pirate ship, and hay bales. then we went on the steam engine ride, walked through the corn maze 3 times, checked out the tipi, bought a few things at the 'trading post' and then i picked them up a happy meal (and a pumpkin latte for myself) and we headed home! they are now napping peacefully and i'm going to scrap my heart out the rest of the afternoon. i have no impending deadlines for ct work and well, i just wanna scrap for me. i've decided that i'm done applying for ct's for awhile. i am very blessed with some wonderful teams and instead of trying to impress the people who aren't interested, i'm going to scrap for me. it's been a long time coming and i've just recently started to realize that i don't HAVE to please everyone. baby steps. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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</div>Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-84898303288105520252010-09-23T08:37:00.000-07:002010-09-23T08:37:29.798-07:00i don't know who's idea it was to get a job....oh right. that'd be mine lol<br />
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i love my part time job, i really do, but i hadn't planned on taking it. it sort of fell into my lap. i'm glad i took it because it gives me the chance to get out of the house and be someone other than 'mom,' which we ALL know i very desperately need, but it also gets in the way of, well, stuff. yesterday i worked. i worked from 8-530. i got emma off to school, took madelyn to the sitters and went to work. i love working at the bank. i see people i normally wouldn't see and i get to do busywork, which i love (call me weird, i love to do meaningless stuff) BUT, it just totally ruins my 'schedule' at home. i have this issue with things being in order. we're all on a schedule for day to day stuffs and my kids thrive on this...as do i. for example, madelyn knows that as soon as she's done with her lunch, she takes a nap. she doesn't ever question it. they know that when they get out of the shower at night, we get dried off, get our jammies on, read a book, kiss Daddy, and head to bed. i have the same routine every night after they do go to bed. i sit with Darik, catch up on the day, then i sit down with my laptop, watch tv while i do whatever it is i have to do online, and eat my nightly snack. it's usually the same snack, but i won't elaborate on that, i'm making myself look more and more nuts by the second here. ANYWAY, my point is (yes, i do have one), the only working one day a week thing puts a crimp in my nice, little schedule and i usually spend the next day recovering from the work hangover. i feel like i'm behind on all things housework and all things online. which is SO not true, but, alas...the way my crazy mind works. i almost think working full time and getting into a routine with that incorporated into it would be better, but i just can't justify leaving madelyn at a sitters all day when a)i love to be home with her and spend the alone time with her and b) i don't NEED to work full time. once she's in school, i *may* work full time, but, i think after 6 years of raising kids i'll enjoy the time to myself. i may be wrong, but that's my thought.<br />
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i was rather productive this AM and i'm damn proud of myself. I got 2 loads of laundry done. took a bath. did the dishes. got emma off to school (which is a feat all in itself), got my challenges for BOTCT written up (GO ME!) ANNND now i'm going to sit down to work with some new releases for this weekend at SSD. if i get nothing else done today, at least i can say the morning was productive!<br />
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tonight when emma gets home from school we're going to meet laura and her kidlets at the children's museum. emma is VERY concerned because we haven't seen them in awhile, but she's super excited. in fact, she came racing down the stairs this morning saying, 'ok mom! lets go see laura now!'<br />
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i've got therapy at noon today and i think i'm just going to spend madelyn's nap time doing stuff for myself. mads has been absolutely bouncing off the walls this morning and i need a second away from the insanity!<br />
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OHOOHOH before i go...it's kristin's birthday this weekend and there are some AWESOME challenges going on at <a href="http://www.sweetshoppecommunity.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?f=3">SSD</a> in celebration. k was going to make a little freebie today but has been having some computer issues so we decided to come up with another fab challenge for peeps to win a gc to her store. k is a bit Glee obsessed. It's no secret. so we're having a <a href="http://www.sweetshoppecommunity.com/forum/showthread.php?t=46570">'mash up challenge'</a> over at SSD...and i am in love with my layout for it!<br />
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</div>Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8573769048050070423.post-12410447163201209692010-09-21T14:45:00.000-07:002010-09-21T14:45:58.040-07:00it's a full moon...yes?lord. these. children. are. insane. today. every time i sit down to start typing i get interrupted by a crazy or something. they're NUTS. literally in madelyn's room bouncing off the walls. no joke.<br />
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not a whole lot of interest in these parts today. today was a catch up on the tv i missed last night kinda day. i watched dancing with the stars...and omg...jennifer grey...bawled. what the hell derek hough? srsly? <br />
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the day started off kinda crappy. just a bad morning, i'm not going into specifics. i'll spare you that. so after i dropped emma off at the bus stop, madelyn and i went for a bike ride. i like going for a bike ride with her in her 'cart' because she pushes me. the kid would go on a 20 mi bike ride if i'd let her. her telling me she wants more is just the incentive i need. so, we went for probably a 4 mi bike ride and it was MUCH needed. helped me clear my head some. we came home for awhile, i did some 'work,' and then we headed to the park with emily and nattie. the girls had an absolute BLAST. i love that they play so well together. the thing that amazed me the most is the fact that the heat doesn't even seem to bother them! they were both beat red and sweating and wouldn't stop for a second!<br />
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after the park i took miss madelyn to mcdonalds for a happy meal and then i was off to therapy. my shoulder has gotten SO much better and i go back to see dr. rezin on the 28th. i'm guessing he'll say that i'm good after i finish my 4 weeks....or i'm hoping LOL <br />
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guess what tonight is?!?!?!?! GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! i'm sooo excited it's back!<br />
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on that note, i'm off. i have been trying all day to get a blog post and it is just NOT working.<br />
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until next time...Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09491656343283338239noreply@blogger.com0