Tuesday, September 29, 2009

No good excuse...

I honestly don't have a good excuse for being a horrible blogger. Not even a little. I suppose now that the weather is changing and we're in the house more often, now would be as good a time as any to settle in and get back into a good blogging routine.

Emma is loving school this year. She's always been one of those kids who really enjoys being given responsibility and she's getting it this year in school. She gets to write her name on her papers everyday instead of the teachers doing it for her. She gets to cut things out on her own, instead of the teachers helping her. She even gets to help other kids do things when they don't always get it the first time around. She's in hog heaven! Tumbling is going SO good for her. She looks forward to Monday nights...and I have to admit, it's kind of fun to watch her get so excited about things we take for granted. She asked me about joining soccer so maybe next year she'll get to do that as well. We'll just have to see how she adjusts to all day kindergarten. We're still trying to find a happy medium as far as napping goes. The days she doesn't nap (which is more often than not through the week), she is an absolute bear. Sassy, crabby, defiant, very not "Emma-esque." The days that she does she is her typical happy, go-lucky self. As always with kids, it's definitely a learning process for all of us.

Miss Madelyn. Oh, my dear second child. She'll be 18 months on the 5th. THAT blows my mind. She talks more than Emma ever did and she throws twice as many fits but that's honestly why she's such a good fit in our family. She knows now that if she stares at us long enough and makes enough funny faces, chances are she's going to get her way and not be in trouble anymore. Yah, she's gonna be a handful, we all know that. Today is Day 1 of Operation Ditch the Binky. I'm still going to let her have it when she's in her crib (for a little while anyway) but no more walking around and trying to talk around it. She's been chewing on it so I'm guessing that it's definitely time to say bye bye.

Darik's in the thick of working right now so he's not around much. We miss him, Emma especially, but I try to keep us busy with little things so the girls don't dwell on it.

I've been throwing myself into my digiscrapping lately. People laugh at me, but I seriously have gotten rid of my food addiction and replaced with scrapping...and I don't consider this vice a bad thing. I've got some VERY talented designers that I am creating for and have whittled down my shopping list quite a bit. I love that it gives me that creative release that I need, and I also am really enjoying all the people I've met along the way. Some I may talk to more than others but I can't say that I've been disappointed with my "computer geek" hobby at all.

Tomorrow is my 9 month post-op checkup. 9 months. It's freaking crazy that it was that long ago that I had surgery, but at the same time, I feel like it happened ages ago. I'll give definite stats tomorrow but according to my records, I'm down almost 140 lbs since I started this whole journey last year. That is seriously 1/2 the person I used to be. It's still all surreal to me. People come up to me and say, "Laura, you look so good!" Yes, I know I do (sorry, I know that sounds vain), but I don't have an actual picture of myself in my head. Imagine this. I was fat for 31 years of my life. How am I supposed to grasp that in 9 months I went from being very obese to being average. Heck, even below average in some cases. I went from wearing a 26 the day I had surgery, to wearing a size 8 now. I went from wearing a size 8 1/2 (or 9) shoe to wearing a 7 1/2. I went from wearing a size 8 1/2 ring to wearing a size 5 1/2. I went from wearing a 38D bra...to a 34 B. Seriously. How does a person grasp that in 9 months? Don't get me wrong. I don't regret my decision in the least. I'm healthier, I'm happier, and I am absolutely over the moon that I'm where I'm at today, but please, if I don't give you the reaction you think I should when I see you in the street, try to remember...this body is new to me too.

Ok, Madelyn is up from her nap and Emma will be home from school soon (loving the arrangement we have...my best friend since grade school has a daughter in school with Emma. I take them to school and they bring her home. I don't have to wake Madelyn from her nap so I can leave and well, I get a lot more done in the afternoon!).

Until next time...

1 comment:

Whit said...

Good luck with the binky! When we broke Alee we took it away in 2 steps--only at home(2 weeks), then only at bedtime. It took us days of going through the house finding the zillion she had stashed everywhere, and there were a couple rough nights, but that only lasted about a week!

(P.S. You do look awesome!)