Sunday, January 18, 2009

A very "real" moment...

Today I got a call from one of my best friends telling me that her and her husband weren't living together anymore. Now, I know, this seems like a pretty minor thing in this day and age but, it's so not. This is the first of my friends who have even sort of separated from their spouse or even boyfriend/girlfriend. There are SO many other factors about this whole thing that are wrong, but, the whole thing is just making me think about something I don't ever want to think about. Darik and I have always had the mentality that divorce is not even an option. We are together until death, through thick and thin, sickness and health. Well, I thought that about the two of them as well. What would happen if Darik and I did split? I mean, I'm a stay at home mom and I totally, totally depend on him. My friend's husband really wants her to get out of the house and get "a life" of her own. Now, she works full time and then comes home to her kids because her husband works afternoons, so, she's a pretty busy girl. But his saying that to her really got me thinking...where have I gone. Don't get me wrong, I love being a stay at home mom (most days) and I love my girls more than anything in this world...but am I still me? I told my friend that from now on once a month we are going out and doing something. I don't care if it's going out to get groceries together or getting a pedicure or going to dinner, we are going to go out and do something. We'll leave the guys at home to watch the kids and we're going to go out for "us" time. This was just an all too real moment for me. What if I were in her shoes? Seriously. My life would be a mess...I just don't even think it would be real. Not that there is a doubt in my mind that Darik and I will always be together, but what if?

ANYWAY, enough gloom and doom for today. I did wind up making an appointment for Emma with a doctor from Children's Memorial for the 26th. It's not actually at the hospital but it's at the Tinley Park satellite office. Same difference, right? We didn't get in with the doctor who has a specialty in her problem but we did get in with a doctor who has a specialty in congenital diseases of the eye so I feel pretty comfortable seeing him. I think we've come to the conclusion that if she does need the surgery we're going to get it done there. It's just more trustworthy in our opinion.

I think that's all for tonight...I want to go to bed with my husband for a change. Let him know that I really do love him.

1 comment:

listgirl said...

Hey Laura - it's always a shock when the first of your friends get divorced. I know you say that you totally depend on him b/c you're a SAHM, but he depends on YOU too, for all the things you do for him. You are right though, going out with your friends will be fun and you still need a sense of yourself outside of being a wife and mom. That way you can be refreshed and give your all to Darik and the girls. :)