so, yesterday about 1 pm, i started peeing. i peed until about 10 am this morning when i took a major dose of antibiotics. i have never had a bladder infection, ever. no clue what one would feel like, no idea what i should look for, but something was definitely wrong. as the day went on, i was peeing more, it started to hurt on my lower right side, then it sorta leaked over into my back. i'd lay down, and have to get up 10 or 15 min later. literally. i had made an appt with a dr, but couldn't get in until thursday. at the time, thursday was ok, i wasn't in a lot of pain, the peeing wasn't super annoying but just irritating, and i figured i'd be ok. well, when i talked to darik about it, he told me not to wait and go to immediate care, i told him i would, and as the night went on, i was glad i did. sooo, i went to immediate care after a very long night. i have a bladder infection, with the possibility that it's in my kidneys. they sent off for a culture and i'll know for sure by saturday. they put me on some uber antibiotics and i picked up some cranberry pills, some cranberry juice, and a bunch of other stuff to ease the pain/discomfort and i'm hoping tonight is a little better. i do feel better and i'm definitely not going to the bathroom as much (thank you baby jesus) so hopefully even if it is/was in my kidneys, the antibiotic will clear it up.
other than moaning and crying and complaining, i haven't been doing a whole lot.
the next couple days are going to be a whirlwind i think. tomorrow i have to watch lily, then after school i have the 3 bigger kids, emma has cheerleading practice and of course darik won't be home until sunday. we're supposed to have a bunch of snow, but only time will tell i guess. the girls are SUPER excited about getting some snow finally though. i digress....friday, i have to watch 2 of the little boys who are in m's class as well as lily, then i'll have josh after school, emma's game is also friday night too. guess that's what i get for being a hermit and lazy all week :)
anywho, i'm off to watch the people's choice awards. hopefully i'm back tomorrow...well rested :)
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
friggin' full moon
you know me, you know that madelyn is my rapscallion. she's sassy, she's mean, well, she's a lot like me, let's be honest. the past couple days she has just been out of control. the mouth, the attitude, the way she treats others....yes, she's 3, but that's no excuse.
she started off the day talking, like she always does, but it never tapered off. ever. she was either spinning or bouncing off the walls (literally) or asking questions or running after the dog, at one point, she even dressed the dog up in her dress up clothes. i handled it all in stride....until we were getting ready for bed and she kicked the dog...and laughed. i snapped. we had JUST discussed 2 days ago that we don't kick the dog, how would she like it if i kicked her for no reason. you get the picture. so, that recent discussion coupled with the way she'd been acting all day and the fact that poor emma was trying to tell me she was sick, just, i snapped. i spanked her. i spanked her out of anger. now, i didn't spank her hard, but i don't spank. i scared her more than anything, but damn it, she needed to know this kind of behavior is NOT acceptable. the past 2 days have been HORRIBLE for her and i honestly don't know if i can take another one. darik leaves in the am and well, she may just be spending a lot of time in her room. i just don't know what to do with her anymore.
i feel bad for emma because she sees me get mad at madelyn and then she thinks i'm mad at her as well....blah. i don't lose my temper with them often, yes, i yell at her for doing things she shouldn't and what not, but i rarely come unglued.
today was that day.
and i feel horrible about it.
*sigh*
she started off the day talking, like she always does, but it never tapered off. ever. she was either spinning or bouncing off the walls (literally) or asking questions or running after the dog, at one point, she even dressed the dog up in her dress up clothes. i handled it all in stride....until we were getting ready for bed and she kicked the dog...and laughed. i snapped. we had JUST discussed 2 days ago that we don't kick the dog, how would she like it if i kicked her for no reason. you get the picture. so, that recent discussion coupled with the way she'd been acting all day and the fact that poor emma was trying to tell me she was sick, just, i snapped. i spanked her. i spanked her out of anger. now, i didn't spank her hard, but i don't spank. i scared her more than anything, but damn it, she needed to know this kind of behavior is NOT acceptable. the past 2 days have been HORRIBLE for her and i honestly don't know if i can take another one. darik leaves in the am and well, she may just be spending a lot of time in her room. i just don't know what to do with her anymore.
i feel bad for emma because she sees me get mad at madelyn and then she thinks i'm mad at her as well....blah. i don't lose my temper with them often, yes, i yell at her for doing things she shouldn't and what not, but i rarely come unglued.
today was that day.
and i feel horrible about it.
*sigh*
Sunday, January 8, 2012
yup. still lazy.
well, now it is sunday...and yup, i'm still lazy :) i haven't left the house (minus to go to the grocery store to get stuff for darik's apple slices) since friday night and i'm ok with that!
i mentioned yesterday was a good day, well, let's just say the demons are making up for that today. madelyn has been whiny and just plain rude all day. she threw the dog off the couch at one point earlier today if that gives you any indication of her loveliness today. *eye roll* emma's never really bad, but when m is like this, it just adds fuel to the fire. e gets annoyed by m, then they bicker, then i get annoyed, and when darik's home he just plain blows up. so while we haven't done a whole lot today, emotions have been....high.
emma starts cheerleading tomorrow night and she is SO excited. she has practice 3 nights this week where they learn a little dance and a cheer and then they're going to perform at one of the varsity boys basketball games at the HS with the Pantherettes. she is just beside herself. it's kinda nice because one of the girls i babysit after school is doing it as well, so kayli will be able to practice with emma. i kinda worry about how well she'll take to this LOL
here's a layout i did today, with la grier's newest kit. i <3 la. i always love my pages with her stuff. scrap therapy is my friend.
well, that is all for today. like i said, we've been boring this weekend, so, not a whole lot to report :)
i mentioned yesterday was a good day, well, let's just say the demons are making up for that today. madelyn has been whiny and just plain rude all day. she threw the dog off the couch at one point earlier today if that gives you any indication of her loveliness today. *eye roll* emma's never really bad, but when m is like this, it just adds fuel to the fire. e gets annoyed by m, then they bicker, then i get annoyed, and when darik's home he just plain blows up. so while we haven't done a whole lot today, emotions have been....high.
emma starts cheerleading tomorrow night and she is SO excited. she has practice 3 nights this week where they learn a little dance and a cheer and then they're going to perform at one of the varsity boys basketball games at the HS with the Pantherettes. she is just beside herself. it's kinda nice because one of the girls i babysit after school is doing it as well, so kayli will be able to practice with emma. i kinda worry about how well she'll take to this LOL
here's a layout i did today, with la grier's newest kit. i <3 la. i always love my pages with her stuff. scrap therapy is my friend.
well, that is all for today. like i said, we've been boring this weekend, so, not a whole lot to report :)
Saturday, January 7, 2012
ahhh, the weekend
gotta love a lazy weekend :) today we did a whole lotta nothin'. once we were up and moving this morning, i made the girls chocolate chip pancakes and bacon. the bacon was more for darik, but that's beside the point LOL
i planned on doing a whole lot of nothing because these past few weeks have been so insanely busy. i DID make some brownies and apple slices for darik's meeting tonight, but for the most part, i spent the day scrapping, playing kinect with the girls, bathing the dog (fun times right there) and just being lazy. i love the age that the girls are at now. yes, madelyn tends to be on the sassy side, but we're all just content just staying home and spending time together. tonight once darik left for his meeting, we sat down and watched thumbelina (well, they watched thumbelina, i read my book) and just snuggled on the couch. they sat and watched the whole movie (minus a few moments of pent up energy) and it was just a really enjoyable evening. i'm not so sure we had many of those about 6 months ago!
i mentioned my book. i'm reading "the happiness project" right now. it's our book of the month over at SSD and it had been recommended to me by a friend almost a year ago now. my one goal for the new year is to be more positive. the older i get, the more i realize that the whole 'fake it until you make it' mantra, is a good one to stick to. so, my goal for this year is to woosah more often and try to focus on the positive instead of the negative. i'm really enjoying this book and i really do think that i will incorporate a lot of what she's saying into my daily life. the part that i just finished up had to do with her relationship with her spouse. it made me realize that i really do need to concentrate more on how i interact with darik. i do push him to the side quite often, not because i don't love him or care about his feelings, but because i'm so strongly independent and well, often times it's just easier to do it myself. i hate to nag, i hate to ask more than once....but i need to own up to the fact that i have my own faults as well.
i've said it before, but, i worked on the outside for 2 years, now it's time to work on the inside. i'm not unhappy with the person i am, but there's always room for improvement :)
i planned on doing a whole lot of nothing because these past few weeks have been so insanely busy. i DID make some brownies and apple slices for darik's meeting tonight, but for the most part, i spent the day scrapping, playing kinect with the girls, bathing the dog (fun times right there) and just being lazy. i love the age that the girls are at now. yes, madelyn tends to be on the sassy side, but we're all just content just staying home and spending time together. tonight once darik left for his meeting, we sat down and watched thumbelina (well, they watched thumbelina, i read my book) and just snuggled on the couch. they sat and watched the whole movie (minus a few moments of pent up energy) and it was just a really enjoyable evening. i'm not so sure we had many of those about 6 months ago!
i mentioned my book. i'm reading "the happiness project" right now. it's our book of the month over at SSD and it had been recommended to me by a friend almost a year ago now. my one goal for the new year is to be more positive. the older i get, the more i realize that the whole 'fake it until you make it' mantra, is a good one to stick to. so, my goal for this year is to woosah more often and try to focus on the positive instead of the negative. i'm really enjoying this book and i really do think that i will incorporate a lot of what she's saying into my daily life. the part that i just finished up had to do with her relationship with her spouse. it made me realize that i really do need to concentrate more on how i interact with darik. i do push him to the side quite often, not because i don't love him or care about his feelings, but because i'm so strongly independent and well, often times it's just easier to do it myself. i hate to nag, i hate to ask more than once....but i need to own up to the fact that i have my own faults as well.
i've said it before, but, i worked on the outside for 2 years, now it's time to work on the inside. i'm not unhappy with the person i am, but there's always room for improvement :)
Friday, January 6, 2012
another week gone
this week has been a rough one for me. hormones, coupled with lack of sleep, coupled with a few people spewing negativity has made for a very emotional week for me. that being said, i've learned a few things. YES...this old dog CAN learn new tricks.
we all know i'm pretty opinionated, and i often say what i'm thinking. i guess the older i get, the more i realize i just can't say whatever i want to say. i mean, yes, i'm still going to be opinionated and i'll still say what i say and what i believe in, but i really need to take people's feelings into account. i realize that saying things, may hurt someone else's feelings and then when it comes around to it, i feel horrible because i've hurt someone's feelings. i play a badass on tv, but we ALL know i'm not one.
other than that, not a whole lot has been going on. babysitting, wallowing, like i said, rough week.
i'll leave today with a couple layouts i did for sweet shoppe's new releases this week :)
we all know i'm pretty opinionated, and i often say what i'm thinking. i guess the older i get, the more i realize i just can't say whatever i want to say. i mean, yes, i'm still going to be opinionated and i'll still say what i say and what i believe in, but i really need to take people's feelings into account. i realize that saying things, may hurt someone else's feelings and then when it comes around to it, i feel horrible because i've hurt someone's feelings. i play a badass on tv, but we ALL know i'm not one.
other than that, not a whole lot has been going on. babysitting, wallowing, like i said, rough week.
i'll leave today with a couple layouts i did for sweet shoppe's new releases this week :)
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
new year, new blog?
now, i know this is doubtful...but....i'd like to keep up with blogging again. i think. i mean, i'm sure people get sick of hearing me spew my nonsense on facebook and well, i need someplace to just talk. so, why not start up ye blog again. it's here, may as well use it ;)
things around here are quite different than they were last year. darik is still working for the same company *thank god* but i am not working. well, i'm not working outside of the home anyway. i've started babysitting. odd job choice for me, but in all actuality, i really do like it. i like that i can stay in my pajamas all day, snuggling up with the kiddos, yet, i can still go to the school activities i want to go to for my OWN children. right now, i only have 1 full time kiddo and then i have 3 after school ones. i'd really like to get another full time child but, we'll see.
emma is loving school...as is madelyn. in that respect, i couldn't be happier.
big news around here....we leave in 42 days to go to cozumel! wooohooooo! darik got it in his head around christmas time that he wanted to get away. so....we all know, when he gets something in his head, it always happens.
other than that, really, same ol' same ol'
i'm sure i'll be back with entertainment again soon
things around here are quite different than they were last year. darik is still working for the same company *thank god* but i am not working. well, i'm not working outside of the home anyway. i've started babysitting. odd job choice for me, but in all actuality, i really do like it. i like that i can stay in my pajamas all day, snuggling up with the kiddos, yet, i can still go to the school activities i want to go to for my OWN children. right now, i only have 1 full time kiddo and then i have 3 after school ones. i'd really like to get another full time child but, we'll see.
emma is loving school...as is madelyn. in that respect, i couldn't be happier.
big news around here....we leave in 42 days to go to cozumel! wooohooooo! darik got it in his head around christmas time that he wanted to get away. so....we all know, when he gets something in his head, it always happens.
other than that, really, same ol' same ol'
i'm sure i'll be back with entertainment again soon
Thursday, August 18, 2011
whoops
man. where has this week gone??? monday and tuesday we spent the days cleaning and what not in preparation for emma to go back to school on wednesday. not a lot went on, but it was stuff we needed to get done.
wednesday was the big first day of school. granted it was only 1/2 a day, but emma was SO excited.
of course, miss madelyn couldn't be upstaged. *eyeroll*
today i watched Jack for a few hours as a test run. he's not going to be a problem i don't think. he's definitely a boy, but he's used to being with girls so i think that will give him a little bit of an edge here. he's a good kid and he definitely kept me on my toes today. i won't start watching lily until the week before labor day so...about 2 more weeks.
i am just SO mad about this next topic, i could spit nails. i'm sure of it. madelyn tested for the preschool that emma went to back in april. april 9th to be exact. they told me she didn't need any further supplemental help (such as REACH or what not) but that they would contact me in about a month to let me know if she would be placed in the preschool. flash forward to june. i get a letter in the mail stating that she is on the waiting list, but that i will be contacted some time before school starts. well, i enrolled her in a preschool here that's 2 days a week for 3 hrs and i have to pay for. she needs something. i figured, even if she got into the school emma had gone to (which is free...and 5 days a week) i would suck up the $75 deposit because well, it'd totally be worth it. emma got SO much out of the school. so, i got a message from my friend yesterday asking if madelyn was in the am or pm class. ummm....she didn't get in? i explained to her about the note, and she talked to the teacher that emma had had. today mrs best called me and asked me what the deal was. i explained to her (lol how many times will i have to tell the story?) about the waiting list and she tells me that all i need to do is produce the wait list letter and fax it to them and she's in. well, of course i can't find the letter. i'm assuming i tossed it because why would i need a letter telling me i was going to get another letter to tell me if she was picked up or not. SO, flash forward to tonight. my friend took her little boy to orientation for the preschool tonight and she explains the whole story to the teacher that her son has (the other teacher, not the one emma had). apparently she thinks there was a lost waiting list. they have SIXTEEN spots available in coal city alone. SIXTEEN. why haven't i been contacted about my daughter yet? they're retesting kids and my kid is still not getting picked up? sure, it was irresponsible of me to lose the letter, but shouldn't that be on YOUR files? i have PT at 9 tomorrow and if i haven't heard anything by the time i get out i will be making phone calls and making sure that she has a spot. this is ridiculous.
RAWR
wednesday was the big first day of school. granted it was only 1/2 a day, but emma was SO excited.
of course, miss madelyn couldn't be upstaged. *eyeroll*
today i watched Jack for a few hours as a test run. he's not going to be a problem i don't think. he's definitely a boy, but he's used to being with girls so i think that will give him a little bit of an edge here. he's a good kid and he definitely kept me on my toes today. i won't start watching lily until the week before labor day so...about 2 more weeks.
i am just SO mad about this next topic, i could spit nails. i'm sure of it. madelyn tested for the preschool that emma went to back in april. april 9th to be exact. they told me she didn't need any further supplemental help (such as REACH or what not) but that they would contact me in about a month to let me know if she would be placed in the preschool. flash forward to june. i get a letter in the mail stating that she is on the waiting list, but that i will be contacted some time before school starts. well, i enrolled her in a preschool here that's 2 days a week for 3 hrs and i have to pay for. she needs something. i figured, even if she got into the school emma had gone to (which is free...and 5 days a week) i would suck up the $75 deposit because well, it'd totally be worth it. emma got SO much out of the school. so, i got a message from my friend yesterday asking if madelyn was in the am or pm class. ummm....she didn't get in? i explained to her about the note, and she talked to the teacher that emma had had. today mrs best called me and asked me what the deal was. i explained to her (lol how many times will i have to tell the story?) about the waiting list and she tells me that all i need to do is produce the wait list letter and fax it to them and she's in. well, of course i can't find the letter. i'm assuming i tossed it because why would i need a letter telling me i was going to get another letter to tell me if she was picked up or not. SO, flash forward to tonight. my friend took her little boy to orientation for the preschool tonight and she explains the whole story to the teacher that her son has (the other teacher, not the one emma had). apparently she thinks there was a lost waiting list. they have SIXTEEN spots available in coal city alone. SIXTEEN. why haven't i been contacted about my daughter yet? they're retesting kids and my kid is still not getting picked up? sure, it was irresponsible of me to lose the letter, but shouldn't that be on YOUR files? i have PT at 9 tomorrow and if i haven't heard anything by the time i get out i will be making phone calls and making sure that she has a spot. this is ridiculous.
RAWR
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